Here we go...

I was gonna wait. I was gonna wait till the "right time". I was gonna wait to tell all of you the BIG news, but then I thought, why?

It's not like if something bad happens, I'm not gonna write about it. Lets face it, I'm an open book. I wear my emotions on the sleeves of the frog blog for all of you to see. Ups, downs, sad moments, happy days, tears, smiles and everything else. Plus, I know very well that waiting till your "in the clear" doesn't mean you in the clear.

So here it goes....It's seems as if we created more than just memories in Florida.... We are expecting, there I said it!

I just couldn't wait anymore, I was already telling everyone and they were telling everyone else plus if I were to wait, what else would I have to talk about on here? "It" is the only thing on my mind right now.

Ok...Ok...I will get to all the details that I know you all want to hear.

I found out the day after Mother's day. I felt...hmmm. How do I say...peculiar. Cloie, my dog, knew for days, following me around treating me like I was broken. As I lay in bed at 1pm staring at her with her head beside me staring back. I literally looked at her and said "okay, I will take the test".

She was right. I immediatly looked into the mirror, smiled, looked up and told Brody thank you for sending us his little brother or sister. I grabbed my camera and took the above picture. When Adam came home, I told him I had been messing with the camera and got some really awesome pictures today. I flipped through and when I stopped on this one, He said "Are you serious?" I shook my head with a grin and we hugged.

My due date is Janurary 21st but they plan on inducing early. I'm not sure how early yet, It depends on how things go.

I'm trying really really hard to take it one day at a time.

Some days I feel like this...

And others I feel like this....

I've already started blogging about my feelings or should we say my hormones taking over my feelings but I haven't posted yet...obviously, I wanted to wait till I announced the news that we were expecting.

It's been quite the journey already and I'm only half way through my first trimester. I've had 2 ultrasounds, 3 doctors appointments, 1 trip to emergency room, 1 scare, lots of preparing for the worst and some expecting the best ...and a hint of tears (okay, lots of tears).

Since Brody died, I've been trying to fight some of my biggest fears. So, I have went on a plane.. and well, thats about it but...I realized today that my biggest fear of all (being pregnant again) is not a fear I want to fight, I want to embrace it!

So there it is. Out in the open. So, join me on this new, exciting, and scary journey through my pregnancy after loss. And if you have a moment or two...Say some prayers. I will accept any and all.

Here we go...